lie detector

I'm in a very self-loathing frame of mind right now. I had a small emotional breakdown last night (I am fine lol) but I ended up eating a fuckton of cake and then weighing myself and then vowing to diet. It's a really fucking awful cycle, but I'm going to start making healthy choices and being more of a sane being.

Also one of my "friends", who's supposed to move into this apartment in a few months, called me fat and said my legs were hairy, in front of other people. So, um, either she's not moving in or I'm not staying here, because that is just fucking awful. But my friend basically threatened to kill her so I feel slightly better. But still, I have enough self-confidence issues as it is.

your mother's warnings, baby
boy could never prepare you
for this; your heart will
be mine or it will lie in tatters at my feet

and while my bones and my body
are constructed of lies and are used
and are torn asunder and while i have
nothing left

you will not survive this encounter
with your heart intact. you are in
love with the stars and with me

for all of the destruction i have endured
i will destroy you.
you are not invincible with your sharp words and sharper intellect.
every hero has an achille's heel,

and every adam has an eve